Whirlwinds of change

It seems as though the more I have to say, the less I speak. I have some braggin rights here lately, but I'm not so sure that I should mention them all. I'm really having a hard time opening up because it feels like I'm going to turn someone away or upset somebody who doesn't quite get where I'm coming from.

I'm working on getting together with what I used to be like and somehow fitting it into who I have become. In the past couple of years I have changed exponentially. I don't talk to God as much as I used to, or atleast not in the same ways. My nerves feel like they are completely shattered sometimes. I guess that would have to do with the fact that now, I am the Mother of six. The teenagers, really get to me sometimes. It's hard for me to be a parent to them sometimes because they are not that much younger than me. In a lot of ways I envy them, I wish I could be starting all over again, with the knowledge I have gained at only 28 years old. I still find myself talking to them like an old woman trying to warn them, trying to help them. Of course, they don't really listen.

Now, our oldest is 17 and is pregnant and we're planning her wedding. Of course, my baby is only two years old now, and I get the pleasure of becoming a Grandmother. This is not always easy to deal with, but I still manage to keep going. I enjoy the prospects and try to be a good Mother and a friend to her. Sometimes it's hard to lay down rules.

On a much more upbeat end, I have God to thank that finally some of my artistic abilities are getting noticed. I will be having my own Gallery Exhibit in January with my photography and possibly a second one later on in the year. I'm very excited and scared all at the same time.

Anyways, I don't know what else to say for now, so I guess I'll be going, God Bless You ALL